The spiritual and moral life is about lessons. Lessons mean there is a teacher and a learner.

Is the I-beyond-consciousness the teacher or the learner?

I know I am in the mood of the Holy Nights when I go into the mystery and paradox of a question like this in a radical way. The nature of my soul means I ask this kind of question all the time. During the Holy Nights, my contemplation of these questions and their responses have a different quality -- one that is rooted in a different part or space of me.

What is this different part?

Rudolf Steiner spoke about the emerging, unfolding fifth chamber of the heart. Could it be this?

Or this different part might be what some speak of as the Holy Grail?

Or a motherspace able to care for what is newborn, dying, and everlasting at the same time?

Whatever you or I call this different part or space we find fundamental and miraculous roots to our sense of selfhood -- to the meaning of I here and now with names, roles, parts, personality and the impression of I that was, is, and will be, that has no other name, and cannot be folded into any personality.

So my answer to the question above: is the I the teacher or the learner? my answer is yes!

Radical learning/teaching is the true definition of education - bringing forth what always was into that which calls forth the new, what will be.

Suggestions:

Which lessons in your lifetime of lessons has taken you to the roots of your truth, your beauty, or your goodness?

Don't go blank here - it is so tempting to remain in amnesia, anesthesia, or projection.
Feel the mysterious smile of your I-beyond consciousness and sink into and rise up to your heart's fifth chamber, to the grail of your consciousness, to the motherspace of your creativity, and you will find the moments of your great, radical lessons of I.

Please imagine that smile.