Dear ,

My physical body is a mixed bag when it comes to balance. As a kid I couldn't walk on fences, couldn't do the pogo stick at all, but I was great at riding my bike with no hands and could hold ballet postures with grace and confidence. I doubt I will ever walk across a swinging rope bridge and standing on the edge of even a subway platform makes me a little anxious.

I have an emotional vertigo that relates to a fear of being dropped.  Dropped into empty, bottomless space.  When I look at these physical experiences, I realize that I lose my sense of embodiment in relation to the amount of empty space around me and whether or not there is something to grab on to in case I start to fall - follow through on a dark impulse to "drop" myself.  On the bike the handle bars were right there.  In ballet, I was so body conscious because of good dance training, leaving my body was not a possibility.  With a rope bridge, not only is there a drop on either side and the possibility that one end could tear loose (thanks for the images, Hollywood) but it is not stable and the surrounding empty space is huge.

These physical challenges to my sense of balance have emotional, social and spiritual mirrors.  I struggle to maintain my emotional equilibrium, social confidence and spiritual grace when I feel a psychic abyss opening up and the ground of myself starts to quake, crumble or rock.   

In relationships, I collapse when I leave a warm engagement.  I feel an energetic hole sucking me into a cold oblivion. I feel forgotten, emotionally dropped.  Rationally, I know this is not so, but the feeling is very real.  It takes me a while to restore a balanced sense of self.

I have worked with these inner balance issues for years.  In most cases, only a mere echo of these feelings remains.  I can stay in my body and feel secure in my footing on the edge of all kinds of open spaces.  I have gotten well acquainted with my emotional center, feel embraced by my selfhood when I leave the joy of social engagement and through my spiritual practices I can experience the vast realities of spirit with out feeling overwhelm and confusion.

In discovering and sharing the wisdom of the Inner Year, I find myself in balance, aligned and in tune with myself and the cosmos.

In the Inner Balance Intensive, I share with you profoundly healing, liberating and empowering imaginations about the mysteries of balance and offer exercises to help with the vertiginous feelings that unsteady your soul. This course is valuable in all aspects of your inner life and your practical life.

What is your sense of inner balance like?  


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