awakening a certainty of Self in an uncertain world

February 4, 2023

Hi Dear Friend,

Why do I resist, delay, and avoid the actions, conversations, and changes that will fulfill my destiny? 

This a a big, very present, actually ever-present, painful question in my self-aware soul. 

It’s an archetypal pattern. We all have it. The collision between the past and the future is the common pattern when unhealed wounds of childhood are triggered by a current task and suddenly the better future appears like a re-wounding.  So we resist, delay, and avoid doing the laundry, asking a tough question, making a request for something we need, setting a boundary, paying a bill, finishing the book, and so many other elements of life. 

I open my refrigerator about 7-10 times a day. Each time I open it I see things that should be tossed. It would take less than a minute… I’ll do it next time or tomorrow. I’m not willing to obey that need for cleanliness. Why? I am not lazy. I love the feeling of creating order and cleanliness. So why do I resist, delay, and avoid? 

Here are a couple of biographical causes: my mother did not model this behavior. She laid in bed reading novels and taking Valium. I am Emily’s loyal, neglected daughter. My step-mother modeled this behavior, but she cruelly punished me for being messy. I am Ann’s admiring step-daughter but if I don’t do it right, I will be hurt. 

There are probably a dozen other reasons I resist, delay, and avoid...and this is just about a refrigerator. What about finishing writing my book?

I am 75 years old still reacting and confused with emotional wounds 65 years old. Can I free my will from my stories? 

Below I share imaginations about a rarer expression of resistance, delay, and avoidance. The Divine Resistance.

Would you like to have a 20-minute complementary consultation with me about your will to clean your refrigerator or to manifest your life's purpose in the realms of contribution, relationship, well-being or inner development? 

Much love for 2023,

Lynn

PS. If you want to leave a comment, please go to my Substack page: The Unfettered Soul where you can also listen to my audios on The Wedding at Cana.

Divine Resistance

The rarer, and deep pattern of resistance, delay, or avoidance occurs when the need for survival, comfort, and ease of living struggle with the step forward  in the mission of incarnation and the deeds that will fulfill destiny.  All destiny, all mission, all purpose is about love, love that changes everything. So why do we resist?

I think it has something and everything to do with freedom from the pre-birth script. When we incarnate into a lifetime, we incarnate with a script or a story describing our life’s purpose, mission, and destiny in one hand and in the other hand, we have the mystery of freedom, the freedom to say no, to say not yet and maybe never. We don’t have to obey or follow the script. In fact, I suspect that my angel loves to see me break free and yet still fulfill. 

Love doesn’t arise from obedience. Love arises from freedom. 

Here’s how I know this…it’s taken years of questioning. 

About 20 years ago, I began researching the festivals and seasons of Christianity. Advent, the Holy Nights, Epiphany, Lent, Easter, etc. With Epiphany, Lent, and Easter, I researched the events in the life of Jesus Christ as models for fully incarnating, for fulfilling destiny, for the highest gestures of love. I have learned that these Christ-lived models need to be followed in our own lifetimes, destinies , and gestures of love. 

Let's look at the model of Divine Resistance

In my program, Inner Epiphany, I look at four epiphanies: The Gifts of the Nativity (birth), The Conversations with the Rabbis in the Temple (age 12), the Baptism in the River Jordan, and the Wedding at Cana. The New Testament first offers us a moment of resistance in the Wedding.

In the zoom conversation this past Tuesday on the Wedding Epiphany we spent a lot of time seeking an understanding of the resistance living in “Woman, what have you to do with me? My hour is not yet.”

In the Wedding at Cana, Jesus Christ, responding to His Mother, says “My hour is not yet.” And then performs His first miracle…He begins. 

Then after the Last Supper, in the Garden of Gethsemane, He asks God, His Father, to take the Cup away. And then he surrenders to his destiny and the ending of his physical existence. 

One is at the beginning, the other the ending. We know that immediately following the resistance, destiny is embraced and enacted. Why is there the attempt to avoid or delay destiny? Are both moments of freedom before love?

Is the resistance the gesture of the human, Jesus, and the immediate action the gesture of the Divine, Christ? 

What are your gestures of love that you resist, delay, or avoid?

 Manifesting your own divine purpose will never be easy, never be free of the pain of becoming. And it is never about another better time. But it is always about choice. Choosing pain and choosing now. Heaven is on the other side. Ask any woman who has given birth. Ask anyone who has supported transformation and knows what it is to turn water to wine. Ask anyone who has known death followed by resurrection. 

It is all about the will of love. Not obedient love. The love of radical freedom and divine choice. As Christ shows us love begins with resistance, attempts to delay, and the longing to avoid. 

I wanted to share these thoughts so each of us can bring compassion to ourselves for resisting, delaying, and avoiding the destiny moments of our lives, the epiphanies when something radically changes either by taking the necessary steps toward beginnings or endings. 

February is the month of love. Let’s not make it about romance. Let’s make it about the divine love we each incarnated to manifest. 

Bonus: Listen to the Inner Epiphany audios on The Wedding at Cana.

Imagining Your Inner Year

Coming this week (If I don't resist!) is the description of all the offerings of the Imagine Self Academy for 2023. I'm excited. Watch for it in your inbox. 

Inner work with Lynn offers a tremendous richness of exploration at the depths of selfhood, more than one could hope to complete in a single lifetime. Lynn accompanies participants with great heart, mind and spirit activated. Her enthusiasm and significant wisdom on the subject of self-exploration in the context of a deeply meaningful esoteric spirituality is a great gift to our community. 

Along with the expansive course material, I especially appreciate her offering of regular gatherings online for live conversation and sharing of our collective and personal journeys. It is so important and supportive that we meet together regularly on this journey, and Lynn's commitment to providing a shared journey is both rare and precious.

Joanna